Some people give me doki dokis so effortlessly :C gah. can’t read too much into anything though.
I generally have more bad experiences with women, which is unfortunate. I get more of a hard time from women than I do from men. I meet too many girls that go along with the mindset that they live to be attractive to men, and that their existence is to try and make them happy. I meet too many girls that feel they have to constantly put out to keep a man interested. I meet too many girls that shame feelings of getting too attached to a man that only wants sex. I meet too many girls that cringe at the word “feminism”. I meet too many girls that are consistently too defensive and afraid to open up, and unwilling to let other girls even befriend their boyfriends, as if they need to have permission to even talk to another girl. I personally think it takes a lot of courage to trust someone, even after you’ve been really hurt. No, it is especially courageous. I don’t like to befriend people that have too many trust issues, but this is more because they are constantly testing you. I don’t think a friendship should be like that. If you can’t trust your friends, you have absolutely no right to demand people trust you. It’s not fair.
That being said, I have a lot of male friends. In fact, I probably have more male friends than female friends. Not all men are the same. But do you know what? I don’t associate myself with self-entitled, manipulative assholes. Negative traits aren’t exclusive to one gender. A lot of women seem to disagree with me. And not to sound egotistical, but yeah, a decent amount of men are interested in me and I’m not interested in them. It happens. The same as how the ones I’m interested in aren’t usually interested in me. It happens. My other friends (and strangers) will give me shit for not wanting to date my friends. “But he’s such a great guy! You should date him!” And while I know my friends are nice people, that’s just it. I want nice friends. I shouldn’t have to dig for it. I spent too many years being guilt tripped over not dating people that were genuinely nice. But kindness shouldn’t be a rare thing. It shouldn’t have to be a big deal. By this logic, I’m apparently supposed to date everyone who is nice to me. And that’d be dozens of people. Am I supposed to date all my friends because they’re all great people? How would that even be fair to them? I will admit I am very picky when it comes to dating. I’m also not immediately looking for a relationship, and someone could have a lot of great qualities, but I think a lot of people forget that having chemistry is extremely important. Chemistry is the number 1 thing I require from a potential relationship, but it’s not something I find very often at all. I’m prone to feeling guilty for a lot of things, so if I were date someone that I have no chemistry with for the sake of feeling obligated to, it would not be fair to them at all. At first it might be tolerable but down the road it’ll hurt. A lot. I’d rather save both parties of having negative feelings. Sometimes I’m called a bitch for that, but I’m not sorry.